THE LIGHT WILL SHINE THROUGH

 

In times like this

In times of bliss

Of happiness and pain

Through sunshine and rain

No matter what you may be going through

Know that the light will always shine through

When what lay at your feet, is the world ahead

Yet you can’t seem to drag yourself out of bed

When you are blessed with all that surrounds

Yet seem as though you are all alone

Know that the light will always shine through

You may feel as though everything is in your reach

Yet for you so far out of reach

That you are everything

Yet nothing

And at times you may feel as though time is slipping by

Looking back at the days passed and wanting to cry

Knowing that things are forever going to change

Wondering if there will be anything that will stay the same

Yet know this, you must do

The light will always shine through

In everything that you do in your coming life

And with each new experience that comes into your life

Know that the light will always shine through

By: Jana Adams…May 3, 2008

 

 

 

A SOUL UNCOVERED

 

You once asked me to say something…to talk

Yet in that moment I could barely walk

My mind was going here and there

Thinking one thought of, this just isn’t fair

Even without the moments we’ve shared

My soul I felt was bared

From the moment you walked in

You did something to me

If you’ll only look inside, then you will see

The joy that you’ve brought my way

All in just one day

Sitting here I picture you

I see you across the way

I want to reach out and say

I want to know everything about you

I want to know your inner-most thoughts and desires

I want to know what makes you burn

And I want to know if it will ever be my turn

The way I feel is so very complicated

Time, it seems, has been belated

Oh, if only we had met so many years ago

I would not have to let you go

For, towards you, I feel strong magnetic pull

And something tells me you feel it too

Yet confused and alone is how I feel

For I thought, that finally, I had found the real deal

The one who makes my heart beat enhance

From the slightest little glance

The one who gives my stomach tingles

From hearing your laugh and seeing your beautiful smile

Yet weeks have passed since we first met

And with us barely saying hi

Tears, they come to my eyes

With the mere thought of us saying our goodbyes

I don’t want to let you go

Though it is said, sometimes the best things happen at just the wrong time

So, as much as I want you to be mine

I have to let you go

However, I want you to know

If things in the present should ever fail

I will be there for you, through wind and hail

So, I will let you fly away

And if you should come back someday

Then I will know the time is right

Our feelings we will no longer have to fight

You will be mine

And I…

I will be yours

 

By: Jana Adams…2004

CHRISTMAS WISHES

 

HEY EVERYONE I JUST WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS. I ALSO WANTED TO LET YOU HOW GREAT GOD IS. ALL OF OUR CHRISTMAS WISHES CAM TRUE THIS YEAR. MY HUSBAND AND I WERE STRUGGELING TO GIVE OUR KIDS A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND (AS ALWAYS) GOD CAME THROUGH. OUR KIDS WERE SINGED UP AT AN ORGANIZATION AND WHEN WE GOT THE GIFTS FOR THEM THERE WAS A CARD WITH THE GIFTS FROM THE WOMAN WHO GRABBED THEIR NAMES. INSIDE THE CARD WAS A LETTER THAT SHE WROTE TO US.

THE LETTER SAID THAT SHE WAS GRATEFUL THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO BUY FOR KIDS….SHE THANKED US FOR ALLOWING HER TO BUY FOR OUR KIDS. I WAS SO TOUCHED BY THIS LETTER BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME THAT HER SON DIED IN A CAR ACCIDENT TWO YEARS AGO ON CHRISTMAS AND LAST YEAR SHE WAS NOT ABLE TO GET OUT OF BED. AND THIS YEAR WHEN SHE SAW OUR NAMES ON THE ANGLE TREE SHE CHOSE OUR NAMES AND THAT SHE WAS BLESSED  AND HONORED THAT WE ALLOWED HER AND GAVE HER THE OPPORTUNITY TO BUY FOR OUR KIDS…I WAS SO TOUCHED THAT I STARTED CRYING. I RECEIVED HER EMAIL IN THE LETTER BECAUSE SHE ASKED THAT I SEND HER PICTURES OF THE KIDS OPENING UP THE GIFTS. I WILL BE SENDING THEM TODAY.

IN ADDITION TO THAT…I MY KIDS WERE SIGNED UP AT THEIR SCHOOL AND RECEIVED A LOT OF GIFTS. WE HAVE BEEN SO BLESSED BY GOD AND MY KIDS HAD SUCH A MERRY CHRISTMAS. I WANT TO WISH ALL OF MY READERS A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND LET YOU ALL KNOW THAT CHRISTMAS WISHES REALLY DO COME TRUE. MY KIDS HAVE BEEN PRETENDING THAT THEY HAVE A BAND FOR THE LONGEST TIME AND TODAY THEY GOT THEIR INSTRUMENTS TO START THEIR BAND.  MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

SERENDIPITY

It is what we call serendipity
The way that you found me
And as easy as it is to now digest
This time almost zeitgeist
With the taste of halva
Melting in my mouth as if flowing larva
And even though you appear semilunar
A full shape takes over you
You are full and sapid
Taking me over so rapid
Leaving me feeling mantic
As you take from me my contraband
And with a lick and a promise
It almost seems praxis
For now I am full of ataraxia
I am full of ataraxia
For you have taken over me
Ah the serendipity
The way you ran across me
The taste of halva
Causing my mouth to form massive amounts of saliva
And now I feel mantic
Yet have no panic
For I have you in my life
I now am your wife
And even though at times you seem semilunar
You are truly in full circle
Full of love for me
Ah the serendipity
And with a lick and a promise
I have won with no miss
Ah the serendipity
Ah the serendipity
By: Jana Adams…November 20, 2007

hello all,

Jana here again. i wanted to write today and was not sure of what i was going to write about until now. you know i have always remained faithful to my husband, even through our hard times. We went through a time where we were dealing with a lot of difficult things in our lives and instead of him talking to me about things, he took things in his own hands and started talking to another woman. I didn't find this out until after we were married and of course he ended things when i told him either he has her as a "friend" or he has me. Through time I could not let this go, because I NEVER expected this kind of behavior out of him. We had known each other for 7 years and were best friends. We got each other through a lot in life and we were so much alike...we still are today (aside from the cheating part). this is why i never expected this out of him.

I could not let things go. I became obsessed with what exactly went on between them. I started asking questions and got pieces...first it was "innocent" information like that he just talked to her and then when i pushed the issue more, I found out more little details. Through the past two years I have become more and more obsessed with this situation and it is so hard for me to let go because each time i bring it up (like every couple months or so) I find out more information...he always says that there is no more information each time, but then I put everything together and then I end up bringing it up again and then I find out something else...

i feel like i am losing my mind here. For each time i find out something new, it hurts me but yet then again i become more obsessed with the situation and want to know more. I am still to this day obsessed with this, and want to know everything and he says still that there is no more information. Am I crazy for being so obsessed, and how does one NOT become, or overcome obsession?

any answers would be appreciated because I feel like I am losing my mind here with this obsession...I mean I want to go so far as to find this other woman and get her side of the story, but can't find her. Anyway, enough venting today. talk later.

JL

MAN’S BEST FRIEND

 

To see him lying there so sweet and  innocent

His big brown eyes looking up at me

There’s a sparkle, a gleam

Almost like a dream

So kismet

Man’s best friend

Woman’s worst enemy

Who knew, this, he could be

So sweet,

So kind

Yet so discrete,

He sneaks behind

Under a tree he lay so gently

Who knew he could be so slimy

Quiet and laid back, he seemed so sweet

Who knew, my heart, he hungered to eat

Who knew he was plotting against my heart

As to save it for the platter he rolls upon a cart

So juicy, so pure

So full of love, yet unsure

He leaped from his spot

To love me?...Oh! NOT

He tossed me here and there

He threw me everywhere

His love and kindness, he was suppose to share

Yet I did not have the long beautiful brown hair

He tucked me under his bed

Put me out of his head

Then went on his way

To claim yet another, on this very day.

 

By: Jana Adams

October 2006

 

WORDS ARE JUST WORDS

He speaks no words, just sits there in a daze
Looking before him, seeing his life as a haze
Does he wonder what will happen?
Does he want to invite me in?
Does he realize what he’s done?
Is there a chance that his life has not ended, yet begun?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go that won’t bring a tear?
Does he know of the pain that he caused?
Does he know of the heart he paused?
Will he change this time?
Will his heart ever sing to a different rhyme?
Will his words ever hold truth and not lies?
Or will he turn out to be like all the other guys?
A promise over and over again
That he would, in that way, never again sin
Does he realize, that to me, his words are just words
They are a thousand nails in a minority of boards
To me, these words, they have no meaning
They are annoying bells, in my ear, ringing
Spit out and sprayed, as to pacify
Yet in the end causing a pleading cry
Does he realize that I hear, I listen
Yet to me, anymore, they mean nothing
These words are a quick jab
A sharp stab
These words are just words
They have no meaning
They are a thousand nails in a minority of boards
They are annoying bells, in my ear, ringing
Belief of these words were at one time present
For I had no reason to believe anything different
Yet through time these words have lost their measure
Spoken as if just to pleasure
Through time these words have lost their worth
For they were spoken in supposed truth to cover up the worse
These words are just words
They are a thousand nails in a minority of boards
Yet still, in time, I hope that these words that spit from his mouth
Will be words I can trust, these words that come out.

By: Jana Adams
December 3, 2006

MY LIFE MY LOVES

 

How do I describe the most joyous days of my life?

The days when each of you came into me life

First, I start with you, my oldest daughter

Who brings light to the room with your most simple laughter

Who reaches out to help those in need

No second thoughts, and without greed

And next I come to you

The one I received in oh thousand on two

With your daring nature

Willing to take on all presented to you

A born leader and not a follower

One of whom to God many will follow her

And next my son

Who was guided to me through the rays of the sun

With the calming voice

That will lead many to the right choice

Who praises God with his hands in the air

In thanks of what God has given him here

And last bus not least, my youngest baby

Who over came all that was placed in front of you and me

Whose destination was planned through the kindest of grace

With the strong personality that will overcome each and every race

Who brings joy to all who look upon her face

All of you are miracles to me

Came into the world for all to see

All with a specific purpose

Designed by God with no mistake

To make a difference

In this world that He did make

My loves, my life

My children, full of life

I am blessed to have each and every one of you

In my life that God placed, so perfect only he knew.

I love you all with all my heart

And through time I will always be there to the end as from the start.

 

By: Jana Adams…July, 2007